when your not there
im naked
when your here
my life's flawless
who would have ever imagined
what we would become
Je vous aime

the arse wearing my earring

awww....=)

my kinda ear wax

hair colour- before

hair colour- after

parvinder in the train

hes sick

everytime i tink of lesbian.. i think of pedro.. haha!

about to break fast

at geylang

haha.. gary in class

here's another one

- October 25th post has been removed because i dont want to get into trouble and Yes im a coward. =) -

walked around the neighbourhood with ashy
i feel much better already... =)

lalala

When i woke up today, i felt sad. I felt dizzy, as if someone had knocked me hard on the head with a sledge hammer.
After talking to ppl on msn, i felt better by the early evening. Somethings seriously wrong.. i aint liking this feeling one damn bit.

Anyways, talked about stuff for the first time in months with mom. We talked about relationships etc.. i held her hand while we walked down to eat dinner.. =)

Oh.. by the way.. pasir ris park sucks to the max.. i hate that empty, lifeless place.Lucky ash was there or id just rot there and friggin die! haha! muacksh

nat and raf

jackson's sick most of the time

just another day at the cafe

going to canteen.rafidah,shafie,lionel,saiful

using lappies in the mrt!

breaking fast...

parvinder singh pro wakeboarder

shafie ( pro skateboarder.. don pray pray)

big feeeeeeetttt

awwwwww


what is a blog entry without a pic of.. me?

occasional moodswing
maybe its the bordem
i need laughter
come to me

today, school was fun. finally..
after schl me and rafidah went to find the gang but ALL the gilrs went home..
so
we were stuck with the guys..
jackson.. suckerfish..u cabot sch oso dono how to go back sak

parvinder,raf,shafie,saiful,richard,jack and me were sitting down cracking jokes and commenting on the karate kids on stage.
its like a daily gathering man.. haha..

they say ive been inflenced by par's lameness..
uh oh.. screwed can!
haha.. im like worse than him already...


after tt went met muh and bel..
muh.. everytime take off ah.. siao lah.. haha
walked around.. went to wisma foodcourt
nice place! for a foodcourt.. slurpp

im like so tight this mth
phone bills.. so many things to get... its become more of a necessity than a want..
i need a bag to stuff my lappie in.. i need sandles..i need vans.. ( okok i want vans slipon's * curses mohan*)
dun wanna trouble my parents for anything...
and i dont work..
so i dont ask

she and me were so...
now its so.. different..
and i feel weird
time will heal everyting..?
can time fly a bit faster?
can?


i got troubles and stuff like every other teen
but.. heck..
sometimes i gotta just stop writing whatever i want here
everyone reads...
and comments..

next time im gonna write abt 20 ways you can pose to look stupid or something like that.or become like sister furong jie jie and promote myself...

wah.. that indian butch girl in school.. look at me as if she wanna beat me up
shudders..
like her boxers tho.. looks cool

school dosent have eye candy..
luckily i get eye candy once a week
=D

feel mooooodyyy..
thanks fah,mab,raf,nat,pedro..

ok thats it for todays entry
adios
love my babies..

Ive been thinking what i want to do in life for a long time. When out with ash yesterday, his statement ' you have no one to blame but yourself' really got me thinking about what i was doing wrong.
In fact ive done a lot of fucked up stuff.. Ive slackened ever since school started. and yeah i should be blaming myself and not the atmosphere im in. I dont look forward to school except to see my friends. I go to school for the sake of getting my grades at the end of the day. I gotta be more independant for my own actions..
So far..ive come up with this. I dont know if its gonaa work out though

in the next 2 years :

work my ass out in poly and do extremly well. + earnt the damn 40 ce points.. also.. improve on my chinese and learn a new language( ie. french)

After poly...
1) apply for an air stewardess job for 2 years max

2) get a degree in biotech. Its probably much easier for me to gain top 2% in my course due to the fact that there is a much lower number of people in it compared to other polytechnics..

3) work for a few years and save up enough dough to start my fashion design dreaammss. haha

i wanna be a social worker when ive become very stable and dont see the need to work anymore( thats prolly never gonna happen.. its a dream man..)

my leg aint gonna be a barrier for anything... wheee...
ive gotta learn to be more optimistic in life.. its too short babies...

Schools' been a fucking bore to the core ( rhymes)
but yesterday...
there was some fitness competition going on stage
as raf,nat,vick,jocey,hsi yin,jiaying,jiali and me sat down deciding on whether to go to bugis, the great one jackson tai walked past us.
he was dressed in the perfect attire.. shorts and his secondary school t-shirt.
you can guess what we did after that...

minutes later the great one was on stage with another bunch of contestants.. and not forgetting the captain of dragon boat whos defined as 'cute' by some of the girls.. *puke*

after 1 and a half hours of areobics and training.. i can safely say
jackson..
1) can shake his booty
2) has.. muscles* cough cough*
3) looks cute
4) still walks like boing boing ( the lingo only i can understand)
5) has an ass like jlo

hahaha... jack.. hope yer not gonna man slaughter me for this...

ill be back... ^ trumpets in the background^
love my babies
to ash : love u miss u lick u suck u fuck u
im out

HAPPY BDAY MABEL....
thanks for being my fellow bitch.. my twin.. and my good friend.. love you loads!

 RITZ CARLTON BUFFET DINNER

 * ritz carlton toilet.. fit to live in*

we're still posing in the toilet

blurry effect

pose pose pose pose

lesbianism

the staircase

imma skinny legged girl

samara lookalikes

trio

greenhouse.. eating... slurpp

narcissistic... bah

im starting to worry too much about everything.......
i should stop my bad habits such as caboting school...
fuck i feel guilty to the max....
dunno why...
i wanna do well....

ITs a New Dawn.. Its a New day.. Its a new life for me.. and i AINT feeling good

For starters... the blog skin right now.. fucking sucks.. think i was blind or something, putting it up. Looks so manjen.

Anywhoo.. the new semster has started, and i hate it. I want PN0209 back. PL0204.. theres something about it which i dont think i can get used to. The people? the environment? i dont really know. I dont think i can say much.. its only the first day.. most of em would probably be feeling the same thing. Im at a point know where i just feel like quitting for the sake of not feeling comfortable.

Yesterday i went to bugis with Rafidah,jocey,hsi yin and jia li. Sem 1 classmates. We had fun.. especially the time we sat in coffee bean chatting and laughing for 2 hours until people started getting sick of us. At one point we started talking about first impressions each of us had of each other. Everyone told me about how quiet i was. I agree. When i first meet people.. im like that. Im not very sociable. The more i hang out with a person the more i become myself - crappy and open.

I took the time to go out with muneera and priyanka today. They're finally done with their promos! good luck u guys.. =) We had fun. 2 damn chio girls.. I looked haggered and tired.. as usual. didnt care.. haha..
Went to thread eyebrows. Like FINALLY!!!!! dude.. it was like a friggin bush man..
Then went to eat at muthus curry.. The interor designing is fucking fab. Awesome.. I love the design. And the food is yummy.. we ordered Dum biryani and chicken tika.. WOOO!!
Went to bugis after that and did some shopping for jeans...

Speaking of shopping. Goign shopping with mabs tmr!!! yahoo.. finally.. gonna get a gazillion tetra trillion tops.. mew. All of us were planning to go to chijmes on thurs night for dinner and stay over at a hotel, but dont know if everything is gonna work out.
And that thing at club momo.. dont think i can go... after the late thursday night... dunno if ash can come on thurs. after his work. he'd probably be tired...

Thursday is comin... fast....