Ive been thinking what i want to do in life for a long time. When out with ash yesterday, his statement ' you have no one to blame but yourself' really got me thinking about what i was doing wrong.
In fact ive done a lot of fucked up stuff.. Ive slackened ever since school started. and yeah i should be blaming myself and not the atmosphere im in. I dont look forward to school except to see my friends. I go to school for the sake of getting my grades at the end of the day. I gotta be more independant for my own actions..
So far..ive come up with this. I dont know if its gonaa work out though

in the next 2 years :

work my ass out in poly and do extremly well. + earnt the damn 40 ce points.. also.. improve on my chinese and learn a new language( ie. french)

After poly...
1) apply for an air stewardess job for 2 years max

2) get a degree in biotech. Its probably much easier for me to gain top 2% in my course due to the fact that there is a much lower number of people in it compared to other polytechnics..

3) work for a few years and save up enough dough to start my fashion design dreaammss. haha

i wanna be a social worker when ive become very stable and dont see the need to work anymore( thats prolly never gonna happen.. its a dream man..)

my leg aint gonna be a barrier for anything... wheee...
ive gotta learn to be more optimistic in life.. its too short babies...