im going.
im gone sunday morning.
dont miss me.

=)

So i went to meet my close bunch of friends today. with mab naz and mawar missing though. But anyways it was great. I miss talking to them and sharing suff with them and i miss those times in secondary school! we totally kicked BVSS ass man! uh huhhh uh huhhhh!
if you were to give us a dollar for every stupid thing we did in secondary school, we'd be frecking billionares.!

Anyways. Met a friend on saturday.it was nice. was greatt talking to him. hes got tons of stories to tell man. We spent talking and talking outside PS until 12.30 am. was good.

haha. ok lah thats it. im outttt babies.
have a good week ahead..
ash- have a great time overseas.
mun- good luck with yer exams
nyhahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

THE END

i can never get enough of the headsprung songgg.
i need to listen to it at least... once a day
i CRAVE for ed's mp3 to listen to THAT SONG!
the bajeeeeezus!


damn shruthi you just wasted 20 seconds of your life and blog space.
whateevvver................

Confessions Part 2.

helloooo.

i was looking back at my posts of previous times. and something hit me. I realised i was soo much more jovial, happy go lucky and had more things to write about then.

I think the intensity of my past break up really made me emotional. i thought things could work out. i tried to make things better between us, and for myself, but it failed. I didnt think that everything would be over so soon and because of such a confusing reason/reasons. Confusing because i kept thinking about the commitment thing and then i kept thinking, maybe he needs or wants someone better.

Being in a relationship for the first time made me learn quite a few stuff, but made me so down because i was being forced to move on. because i was being forced to accept the fact that nothing was going to change. for now or maybe forever.

I know people may be thinking. Sheesh. her first relationship and shes already so serious with it. Not serious. its just that. i value people i love a lot. and i am a sensitive person.

He kept telling me to move on. and i knew i had to. Because if he found someone better than me one day and got together with her i would be even more heartbroken.

Ive gotten to know so many more people. Some people just take my mind off stuff for a while and make me smile.

but ash. i still love you and i still need you to talk to me to make my day. And I hope you find someone who.. blows you off your feet. =)

people gotta love me for me, because im worth more than what you think

tata!
i promise ill be less emo next time.

an update on yesterday

went to town with my shruthi.
walk from one corner to another.
n for the first time i enjoy shopping.
well er... not realli just tht i like the way my beech try her things.
she picks the the right clothes.
she went to shops tht i dun mind goin.

n yea the corset is a masterpiece.
she fall in love it.absolute gorgeous.
but the ninety-three bucks will cause a bomb in her pocket.
we saw huiching.oh tht blur gal is so pretty now..
.n happy bdae gal.legal age now.....
a crazt idea pop out of our head n bang.
we met the msn porn star.
wont wanna elaborate this too much.but yeah....we felt pretty bad
"didnt turn up" in the end.

then we met jegan n his frens.
tht guy is suppose to meet us n chill with us.
but we end up just meetin for a while.
so we chill with his frens, andrew and danny for awhile.
it was pretty cool.andrews a nice fella.n danny is all so cute.

danny says tht shruts hot.but as in our view - hes tht kind of cute-but-fuck-and-go guy.
hahahahaha
now tht is funny
a cute guy who is a mixture of almost every race.but hv the face of one night stander.oppsss....

shurts came to my plc n drag naz along.
tht beech is suppose to go for some freakin camp but she end up in my room.
most of the time they both are the one who uses MY lappie.
n im just there, playin by myself.

- adapted from pinkrockers blog.....


ash.
missing you.
its unbelievable.
i hope we'd still talk.
i hope we'd still meet.
your specs are still with me.
my hearts still with you.


sigh.

i love this black corset from topshop! but its fucking 93 bucks!!!!! OMGGGG..anybody wanna get for me??? ARHHHHH

crazy people

Growing up
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=)

dear..uh.. virtual diary.( haha) ok it wasnt funny?
MOVING ON.

i finally got the chance to meet up with someone i wanted to meet for a long time. And it felt really good to see him. Thanks =)
hopefully we'd be able to do it sometime again.. soon. i miss you

Im gonna get myself busy these holidays. dont wanna waste it for nothing. Gonna go down on tuesday for some modelling shit. Give it a try. take up some lessons? work? oh and i need a tan! my skins getting paaaleeee.. grr

Off to KL tomorrow for the weekend.. miss me.
love everyone.

i know what i want. i also know i cant have what i want.
its because i cant have what i want, i struggle to find ways to make without what i cant have. dammit.

-pedro 07.03.06

Incase you havent noticed i love putting BIG ASS photos of my face on my blog.








i seriously dont know what to blog. nothing seems to interest me now.
im out

every where i turn
everyone i see
every move i make
every song i listen to
reminds me of you.

why....

So me, raf,nat and owen went to taka to slack our balls off cos i forgot to bring my house keys.





suddenly this man came up to us and started talking about how he has the ability to judge people based on their handwriting. Intrigued, we decided to give it a try..



What amazed me was how he was able to tell that owen had a sports injury near his ankle. Which is true! So we asked him how the hell he knew and he told us to look at every 'y' and 'g' that owen wrote on the paper. If looked at carefully, you could see dots. at every 'y' and 'g'. haha! damn! and that explained itt..

I tried it too.. and most of the stuff he said about we were so true. like i think a lot. i plan things which are going to happen in my head. and i need outings and all that with friends to be planned in advance.
ANDDD
he said under the 'sexuality' genre, i like to experiement and loves different varieties. HAHA!! ARGHH OOOO LALA

Damn that was good....

Anyways, i found another handwriting analysis thing over the internet and tried it out.

this is what it said..:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry. You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones. You are affectionate, passionate, expressive, and future-oriented. You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody! You are self-confident and like to bring attention to yourself.

somewhat there.. hahaha
go check it out!
http://handwriting.feedbucket.com
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Graphology ( how people analysis handwritings)

im out
love to all that matter

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybeI'll find some peace tonight

i put myself in your shoes
and realised where you were coming from all along
but now its too late.


i got to let everything go.