Confessions Part 2.

helloooo.

i was looking back at my posts of previous times. and something hit me. I realised i was soo much more jovial, happy go lucky and had more things to write about then.

I think the intensity of my past break up really made me emotional. i thought things could work out. i tried to make things better between us, and for myself, but it failed. I didnt think that everything would be over so soon and because of such a confusing reason/reasons. Confusing because i kept thinking about the commitment thing and then i kept thinking, maybe he needs or wants someone better.

Being in a relationship for the first time made me learn quite a few stuff, but made me so down because i was being forced to move on. because i was being forced to accept the fact that nothing was going to change. for now or maybe forever.

I know people may be thinking. Sheesh. her first relationship and shes already so serious with it. Not serious. its just that. i value people i love a lot. and i am a sensitive person.

He kept telling me to move on. and i knew i had to. Because if he found someone better than me one day and got together with her i would be even more heartbroken.

Ive gotten to know so many more people. Some people just take my mind off stuff for a while and make me smile.

but ash. i still love you and i still need you to talk to me to make my day. And I hope you find someone who.. blows you off your feet. =)

people gotta love me for me, because im worth more than what you think

tata!
i promise ill be less emo next time.