as i lay down beside you that day
i thought to myself and i didnt want to go back home
because after that i knew that everything would be different

was it always about me, about what i expect,about what i want?
when i look back i think maybe it was more to my side.
maybe it wasnt.
you still controlled my emotions
you still controlled the decisions we made
but maybe i failed to hear your side of the story
and put myself in your shoes about what you were thinking
maybe i jumped into conclusions too fast
and took everything too seriously
maybe i should have just sat back and let time settle everything.but i couldnt.
as i move forward i realise its going to take a while.
as it does in most.. cases.

sometimes i wish it were a dream
sometimes i wish you'd wanted this to work.somehow.
because i did.
and maybe still do.
but i guess thats nearly impossible..

take care of yourself
~